Ummmm, I'm feeling like a fifth wheel...

So yeah, exactly as it says in the title.
I went online today and I started talking to few of my friends and.... Nobody replied...
It made me feel like I'm carying around some disease and people are afraid that I'll pass it on to them by AIM...
It feels really bad when you talk to people you like a lot and they're like "whatever" it kind of hurts too...

Oh yeah, I'm going for my first HIV testing tomorrow and even tho I know I'm negative it still freaks me out a little...