Sand In My Shoes, Confusion In My Head...

Well, here I go! My First Blogging experience.
To Tell you the truth I've wanted to find out what's all the fuss about ever since I first heard the name "Blog"
So let me get started.
I Live In a medium sized city called Elizabeth which is a shit hole really. There is like literally no life going on.. Well, there is some kind of life going on but it's mostly centered on belonging to some gang and doing lots of drugs.
There is no places you could hang out with your friendson the evenings, and there is totally no places where two gay guys could hang out together without getting nasty looks from other people.
I came here from Poland four years ago and I fuckin' HATE United States!
I'm gay and I live in a Homophobic family which doesn't make it any better and on top of that my boyfriend lives a few thousand miles away..
Sucks, doesn't it?
Well, It's not really THAT bad, and I'm actually getting used to it.
I got a boring job. I was supposed to start college in September but I've decided to take some time off and rest. And I've got a whole bunch of great friends!

So today I was waken up by a call from my friend Iwona who just got out of classes at her university and was coming home. Twenty minutes later I was sitting in her kitchen, having coffee and breakfast, talking about our boyfriends and some other stuff. U know, one of those girly talks over breakfast.
I left her house after 2:15p.m. and as I was walking slowly towards my condo I realized I should have my whole life planned out already. I mean, I'm 19, almost 20 and I still have no idea what the hell am I supposed to do with my life! It's really scary, but at least I know that whatever happens with my life, it'll happen somewhere in Europe because I'm definetely not staying in the US for good.